Self Awareness Down to a List

most used phrases in writing:

1. And

2. I think

3. But

most used phrases in speech:

1. I mean

2. Okay

3. [laughter]

Unfear

used to be
but no longer Scared Worried Wondering if I'm leaving anything
behind

I am

the quietest sorry.

When I Sleep Noons

who knew the best naps would be
those incited by twitches trying to pull me out of being
tired
full
warm breezes climb the back of my thighs
as I am contorted in my most comfortable shape
as I am eyelashes grazing the crescent bags painted acrostic like
Deeper
Rest
Easing
Aimlessly
More
Into
Nestled
Goneness

Thump Thump Thunder

once it started thundering I didn't mind staying awake
sometimes since my curtains are drawn all the time
rain is the only thing that tells me there's a moving world out there

Strawberry Season

I used to love strawberries
not anymore though
they don't taste as sweet

Worrying

there is still an instilled stillness
right around this time when the only thing is the
whirring whirring turning motors of the laptop
and a distant toilet tank that does not silence

Thanks

They can’t do anything on their own
She is so greedy and takes all that I hand her
He grabs onto my fingers and says thank you thank you thank you
I carry them to and from the only places they’ve ever known
And they sneeze in the crook of my arms
Bless you bless you bless you

Todawn

Two cups of coffee on an empty stomach of 8 grapes
I heard the rain begin for the first time in a long while
The Russian Revolution and the Soviet Union left much to be desired